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[Dec. 16th, 2009|10:24 pm] |
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| | red jumpsuit apparatus (only because my roomie has it on) | ] |
I have successfully completed another semester of college! I am so ridiculously excited. Not because I didn't enjoy this semester immesely, but because I worked hard in my classes and now I get grades to show for it. It feels good to know that now after all that work, I get a nice long break at home with my amazing family and friends from high school. To be honest, I am really going to miss my friends here in Merced, but wherever I am, I know God is with me, and that there are so many people in this world who love me. I'm really excited to go back home and reconnect with people I haven't seen in the past few months. This has been the best semester of college so far. I am hoping for 4 A's and a B. Although even a B in physics would be unlikely....I'm pretty sad that genetics is over though. I used to study for that class for fun because it was so interesting.
I've heard that when people take 20 unit semesters they want to kill themselves, but I took 20 units, worked 16 hours a week, spent lots of time with my friends, went to the gym every single day and went to office hours every single week and sometimes tutoring and I never felt worn down. Tired sometimes, but never weary. Can't wait for next semester and to begin preparing for INDIA!!!!!!!!!!! |
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[Dec. 12th, 2009|11:30 pm] |
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| | elliott smith // alameda | ] |
"If the person had only experienced the wonderful love of Jesus in their life, they would have an example to compare and know if they are experiencing true love."
My friend sent that to me in a message today and all at once I realized why this time is so extraordinarily different. It is not that I had not experienced the love of Christ in my life before, but the intensity with which I have felt it now, the captivating high of His presence has revealed to me precisely what true love is.
I think I am falling in love. That feels strange to write, but even as I do, I am sure that it is true. In September, I committed a year of my life to God in the abscence of any relationships and I asked Him to let me develop close relationships with my brothers and to help me learn exactly what I am looking for in that one person I am going to spend the rest of my life with. Even then, I knew that I had strong feelings for this person, but I wanted to be sure. And I am. No matter how many people I have met at school, no matter how many people tell me I'm pretty or ask for my number, it doesn't seem to matter. Of course I am committed to God until September. I like to say that I am "dating Jesus" as funny as that may sound. What is so amazing about this is that I have fallen in love with his heart, he is truly the most beautiful person I have ever encountered in my life. It's so funny that this feels so right and we're not even dating, we're just friends. But I pray and I pray about it and it continues to feel right. I don't know what the future holds. It seems like most of my friends never even date at all, all of a sudden they're just engaged. (I have a friend getting married in March who got engaged on her first date.) I'm not worried though. If this is from God, then I don't need to be in a relationship in my time, but in His time. And His time is always perfect timing. I absolutely love life. It is beautiful. |
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